Friday, December 08, 2006
define me friendship. what is friendship? what are friends? is there such thing as true friendship? look and read my first image. the top one. friendship seems to a beautiful relationship. a friend is someone who understands, knows us well, cares for us and all those beautiful note. is there such person? i used to think i've friends and i really mean them as friends. but the truth is i am alone. i do not have friends. true friends who are always there for me. not even one. look at those pics. man, we did look happy. but we're not. inside, each of us resent each other. there's a conflict among us. we're not happy with each other. selwyn is no longer my friend. in fact, i regretted of regarding him as my friend last time. he's not good. not good at all. look at us girls. ain't we look happy? not. is it me? somehow, i feel suxin and sher have changed. i no longer know them anymore. there's a distant between me and them. we're not closed as we're used to be. athena? well, i'm more closer to her now but i can't trust her. somehow, i can't trust people now. i used to put my trust on people easily but not now. whenever i'm with someone, my back of my mind tells me that this person has backstabbed me. i don't wanna be like athena. man, i pity her. she doesn't know anything. and if one day she know, she definitely will hit the roof. i don't want them to treat me like what they treat athena. and this is what we call friends? who make use of people, mock them at their back? i used to cry over broken friendships. but now, my tears over freaking friendships have dried. the words 'true friendship' have vanished from my dictionary. there's no such thing. the truth is all we have are just friends. friends who are only there for us when we're happy but they're not there when we're in need. only just friends.
i was just thinking. am i like those friends?
rabiah♥11:55 AM
