today is a gift

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

i was at the kk hospital since 12 plus and just returned home. miss my mum. she'll be warded in the hospital for like 3-4 days. and before me and my sis left her, she's heading to the labour ward. maybe my baby bro will be borned tonight i guess. frankly, i was so not happy when i got to learn that my mum's pregnant. it's just that she's almost 38 and she has 3 daughters. my dad does not earn much and she's not working. her daughters are growing up. and money does matter. well, i did protest but my folks didn't really bother as they're getting a son. woo, how exciting. not. but then, i'm slowly accepting him. he's my bro and my blood. how can i not accept him, right? he's a gift from Allah and i absolutely have no freaking right to go against His gift. i was looking at the newborn babies at kk.man, they looked so freaking innocent. so pure. don't know the real world yet.

mum's right. it was freaking boring being warded in the hospital. thank goodness, there's kk mall. not bad. there're quite lots of shops. i bought a disney book :) only when i was sitting at my mum's bed did i read a muslim digest. i was attracted to this column stating about the purpose of life. there're freaking lots of devastations in this world caused by natural disasters and man provides his own contribution to such misery by creating war and political strife. as observers, we often feel overwhelmed and helpless. we tend to think that we can only do a little and it won't make any difference. however, there's a saying goes "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." subhanallah. God has given something special in each of us. He has gifted us all with the ability to make a difference. actually, it's us who think that we're hopeless but if there's a will, there's a way. just look at those handicapped people who have succeeded in their lives. there's this olympics for them and subhanallah, some of them are better than the normal ones. honestly, i used to think negative of myself and never fail to look down on myself. but actually, i should reflect and see what are my flaws and how am i going to change. it's difficult i guess. it's all in the mind.

rabiah♥8:51 PM