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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Oh. My. God. seriously. what is freaking wrong with me? must be those books and magazines which i've read recently. they made me change. yes, obviously it's them. but why must i be influenced by those stuff? should i add tyra one of those lists of things which or rather who change me? Oh. My. God. frankly, i cannot believe what i've just done. seriously. i just confessed. ok. usher's confessions is playing in my dumb head. yes, i just confessed. Oh. My. God. i am really unable to believe it. what's up with me? i confessed to my long-lost friends that. i. miss. them. Oh. My. God. did i just say that? ok. i just sent sms to them. but still. i still confessed. should i imply that i just blurted out but not in verbally terms? Oh. My. God. man, am i changing or what? not what definitely. come on. rabiah who is known, maybe used to be known, for her sarcasms and her stupid ego attitude who won't forgive and forget just confessed to her long-lost friends that she miss them. how sweet. right. not. ok, i don't know it's dumb to freak out just because i just made such confession. it's like what's a big deal for a fat, lonely girl to tell her oh-long-lost friends that she miss them. but still. it's just not me. to be so, erm, sweet towards such long-lost friends. to be honest, yes, i do miss those friends of mine whom i've been spending most of my time with when i was back in bowen. oh, btw, bowen has changed its logo and motto. what the hell. the old motto "wisdom through knowledge" is like original and that new motto "i believe therefore i am" is like so damn common. and that logo. i almost thought it's the new starhub logo. ok, back to the topic. i just cannot stand it. this ego girl(should i say lady? haha. not.) in me is swearing and cursing me for being such a fat dope. hello, rabiah. are you completely insane?! you just confessed to those bunch of long-lost friends of yours who are so damn obviously enjoying themselves without sparing any thought of you who are so boring that anyone can easily throw you in a trash bin which your those friends have been wishing to do but they can't as you're too heavy that you miss them?! ok, fine. i know it's a bit exaggerating. people will find me nuts for freaking out over such a minor stuff. haha. miss her friends. what's a big deal? however, i think i did give them some hints that i really believe they've forgotten me. here goes my stupid-and-dumb-thought-but-i-really-miss-my-friends-message: hey, i know it's really out of random and weird and maybe you guys don't really bother but i miss you guys. anyway, this is rabiah. not some anonymous ppl who has a crush on you and wish to go out with you on valentine's day. well, whatever. oh ya, btw, i hate valentine's day.

rabiah♥11:07 AM