today is a gift

Monday, February 12, 2007

no more looking back. it's all about now and the future. the past? just learn those stupid bloody freaking mistakes. it is time for a change. i don't wanna be a dumb stupid sensitive person. i don't wanna be a someone who thinks that friends are people who can understand us the most. i don't wanna be a person who keeps thinking of the negativities which bring down her self-esteem and resulting in a failure. i don't wanna be a daughter who keeps breaking promises. and i don't wanna be a follower who doesn't listen to Him. it is all now and the future. but i have to bear in mind the life doesn't go in my own way. again, it is all in His Hands.

am i supposed to cry? or be happy? somehow, i just have no feelings. when i got my results, yes, i did feel a bit tensed up. well, who doesn't? upon looking at the smile on mrs azlan's face, i did feel a bit better. yes, i improved from my prelims but still, i am disappointed. i expected that i could do better. however, i have to admit it's my own fault. i wasted those precious times. but there's no more looking back. learn the mistakes. and move on.

people keep saying and insisting me to go for jc. i'm sorry if i disappoint you people especially my relatives but i have made my final decision. in fact, i just submitted my jae. i truly pray and hope that i'll be able to go for my first choice. nanyang poly, nursing course. i don't care if people looks down on me upon knowing my choice. it is my choice, my life and i know myself. i really appreciate my mum who really supports me. ok, honestly, that is her choice. but i go for it. i want her blessings. i want her to be happy. without her, i am nothing. i really want to thank Allah s.w.t. You really answer my prayers. of course, i thank and love my family especially my mum. without them, i am nothing. ok, i feel like i'm receiving an award from oscars or something.

welcome the new rabiah!

rabiah♥11:20 AM