today is a gift

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

just received my jae postings results. nothing surprising. expected. i know i can get to nursing at nanyang poly. ain't i sound confident. whatever. read athena's new blog. she just deleted her previous blog. and she didn't inform me about the change until i asked her. actually, why should i bother? i don't even tell those former classmates of mine that i've this blog. perhaps athena's right. one of her reasons to delete the blog is she just wanna start afresh. me too. there's no point looking back. this ego side of mine keeps influencing me to never give a freaking damn to the past. just erase those memories. all i've to do is only look forward. plan the future. get the goals done. and don't miss those old times. i just feel stupid. i used to be this dumb:missing those people, wishing to go back to the past, hoping to turn back the time, thinking that they do miss me. idiotic fool. astaghfirullah, i should not be that bad. and i'm not supposed to swear. as i've mentioned, i'm really looking forward my poly life. somehow, there's this feeling of excitement. gosh, hidayah is going to the same poly. man, i've been in the same school as her since primary school. and again! well, currently, i'm not in the good terms with her. some stupid stuff. well, she started it. my mom is a good friend of hers. but me and her? not. but, i'm kinda hoping that we can be in good terms. erm, i'm feeling as if there's a tremor. for a spilt second, my room seemed to be shaking. i think i'm having a giddy. or is it just my imagination? whatever. ok, anyway, why am i talking about hidayah? forget her. upon receiving my post, i wanna call my cousin, who's in year 2 in nursing at nanyang. so she's my senior. well, i'm not that closed with her but just a few weeks ago, we're on the phone, chatting about the nursing stuff. yeah, kinda excited and anxious. it's going to be new for me.

anyway, i can't tolerate those girls who are plain freaking girly and too bimbotic. well, i was reading this girl's blog. she's just so lovey-dovey. and never fails to mention about guys. oh, she loves her boyfriends. and this same girl has once told me she hates sluts. talking about a pot calling a kettle black. and she's a dumb teacher's pet. but she's quite clever. whatever.

i want money, money, money! i badly need to shop :)

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