Tuesday, December 25, 2007
mirror
whenever i look at you, i can't help seeing
a black devil looking at me
with heart oozing out blood, full of dirth
as if the word 'evil' is me
mirror
whenever i look at you, i can't help seeing
an obese pig looking at me
with food being stuffed forcefully
as if my fats are piling up quickly
mirror
whenever i look at you, i can't help seeing
an ugly witch looking at me
with tears streaming down slowly
as if the world is against me
mirror
whenever i look at you, i can't help seeing
a beggar with ragged clothes looking at me
with drooping eyes and empty bowl hands
as if no one takes notice of me
mirror
whenever i look at you,i can't help seeing
a very blur face girl looking at me
with a large 'failure' word on her tag
as if my slow brain makes everyone mad
mirror
whenever i look at you, i can't help thinking
are those the way i simply am
or am i simply punishing myself?
forgive me for my extremely poor english. that's why i got a b for my os. however, i just can't help hating myself. hate myself for being so ungrateful. hate myself for being such a complain queen. hate myself for being so slow, so stupid in everything.
i just don't and can't feel confident.
hate myself for hating myself.
