Tuesday, January 01, 2008
i am sick of words. i want action. mind you, action speaks louder than words. you can keep saying that you will change to a better person, to someone who won't waste time, to be more hardworking, but if you just say but do not prove being one, it is absolutely hopeless. words won't change you - they can only make you change - but actions can prove that you've changed. i admit i may be at wrong to critic and condemn you kinda harshly but i have to as i don't want to see you fail. i've reminded you earlier in a soft manner. however, those fell to deaf ears. you even scolded me back. hence, i reciprocated back, condemning you. sorry for my harshness but seriously, i want you to change. i would like to see you being ambitious, having big dreams, possessing a positive and don't-give-up attitude instead of slacking and keep feeling sorry for yourself.
i can't only say others. what about me? i must slap myself. slap myself for slacking a lot, not focusing on my studies when tests and icas keep piling up. end-year exam is like nearing. i've been telling myself to wake up. just wake up to the real world and come back to earth. focus, focus, focus. however, as i've mentioned earlier - action speaks louder than words -, i should do now. it's useless if i keep saying without doing. don't only say. DO. and another one tight slap for me for being very ungrateful. i keep complaining the sorry state i am in while there are others who suffer so much yet they can still persevere and go on.
may Allah s.w.t. bless benazir bhutto's soul. she had been a kinda great woman (ok, in spite of the fact that she had been reported to be filed against corruption charges and other charges) fighting for democracy in pakistan. suicide bombers are like well-known. public will tend to associate them to the islamic terrorists. at times, i wanna put myself inside those sucide bombers' shoes. what make them be like that? for example, the palestians. they've been suffering, fighting for their land since ages. perhaps, they are so fed up that they feel it's better to create chaos. why would anyone want to destroy the america's world trade center? why do they hate americans, oh, perhaps american leaders? perhaps they wanted to prove america wrong for boasting being the most powerful country in the world. what's up with iraq? when is iraq going to be ever peaceful? where are those chemical weapons which bush claimed they were there? saddam may be dead but iraq is getting from bad to worst. innocents are killed every day, perhaps every minute. the sunnis and shiars are fighting against each other for power meanwhile perhaps, the whites are relaxing at one corner, gleefully witnessing the downfall of iraq and aiming the rich oil resources. i may sound as anti-whites. not. to be frank, i feel those suicide bombers at the bali bombing seemed as if they had nothing to do but to create more chaos. the jis? why must they wanna create havoc in singapore? perhaps singapore seems to be a pro-america. but does singapore support america for the iraq war? don't think so. claimed for the name of jihad. as if. Islam never teaches violence but some muslims somehow teach themselves, manipulating and influencing the rest. and then, people will think Islam is a bad religion, teaching the followers to be terrorists.
Astaghfirullah... Nau'zubillah.
i never fail to amaze listening to the stories of Rasullulah s.a.w. His patience, his love, his soft heart, his gentleness, his perseverance. MasyaAllah. He's almost perfect. what about Mother Theresa? what about Mahatma Gandhi? they sacrificed so much. sacrificed their wealth for people. when can we ever find these people again? we, humans, create so much havoc, so much chaos that our earth has to suffer. the greenhouse effect. the global warming - melting of the glaciers, rising of the sea level, forest fires, polluted air, oil in the sea. gosh, there are too much to mention. i, as a muslim, believe in the doom's day. there are many versions of doom's day from other religions as well. but it's not impossible if we, humans, are the main cause of the doom's day.
i may sound like a bimbotic, typical beauty pagent contestant like in the 'miss congeality' movie.
i want world peace.
