Saturday, April 05, 2008
finally, our 2nd attachment is over. haha. it seems as if i've been countdowning it and so looking forward to the last day. haha. well, i can't deny that i feel relieved after the 3-weeks attchment. ok, it's not exactly 3 weeks. and it's definitely so much better than the previous one. obviously, i was like so damn super blur on the first week especially when i had to go for shs on the 2nd and 3rd. that seemed to worsen my blurness when i came back to the ward on thurs. however, like what ms ng told me "learning is from experience" and summer did mention that "take this as your experience." and i have to say they are indeed true. it is a culture shock from nyp nursing lab to real hospital setting, from mannequins to real-life patients, from friends to colleagues. i am very regretful for the stupid, careless mistakes i've done and at the same time, i feel satisfied after attending to the patients, knowing that i've done my part in helping them in one way or another. haiz, i miss my patients and most of their names are still stuck in my head. and i definitely still remember the gatal ones. haha. "my" patients? haha.
only after i went through this attachment did i somehow feel that probably i'm starting to love nursing. mak never fails to remind me that nursing is a fardhu kifayah. honestly, i've been planning that after serving my 3-year bond at ttsh, i may change my path to another career. i've been having this mindset that i'm just not destined in nursing. it started from my first attachment. gosh, i would not like to reflect those days. rabiah, switch off. ok. frankly, for the past 3 weeks, i always feel i'm the very worst nursing student in the ward. the others are so much better than me and the former ans are the best. i hate my skills, which are just so f***ing sucky. i admit i've to work very hard for my year 2. improve my theory and must, must really brush up my skills.
anyway, big thanks to those who have been guiding and helping me through the attachment. first of all, The AlMighty One, who has been guiding me a lot. mak who never fails to reassure me. ms ng, ms ng and ms chia(from the previous attachment), sn candy, sn keng li, sn pei ru, san halimah to name a few. sharifa and summer for your advices. they are really helpful. will never forget the staff from shs. dr chua, ssn habsah, sn shirley, sn lee yong, en fadhilah and esp en wai wai. and the dear patients. thanks for trusting me to perform the tasks. i really hope that i will not disappoint you guys. InsyaAllah.
woo hoo. can't wait for year 2.
really?
