Sunday, June 01, 2008
my blog has gone through a rather long hiatus. haha. perhaps i am just busy? or feel plain lazy to update. ok, the latter seems to be the answer.
anyway, i am now doing my attachment at kkh, paediatric ward. the attachment is 4-weeks long. i was posted to gynae ward on the first week and to obs ward on the following week. i'm gonna elaborate on my attachment in my next post. InsyaAllah.
i am a great worrier and paranoid person(not sure if there's such word. haha.) mak is going through the phase of dengue fever recovery. not really sure if she has fully recovered as i discovered that it can take as long as 1 month to recover from the fever. seriously can't wait for 3rd june as she's going to take her blood test. looking forward to learn her platelet level. really hope it's going to be within the normal range. mak seems to be relaxed. that's what she is. she can be paranoid at times(who doesn't?) but eventually, she will be calm and able to sooth the situation. i wonder why i can't be like her.
only after she's diagnosed with the fever did i feel the big responsibility that i'm going to carry. when she's warded in cdc, esp nani offered to lend her hand. but somehow, i declined people's help. i wanted to help my family. it's not that i'm arrogant or what, it's just that i don't want to trouble anyone and depend on others. if i still can handle, i'll do it myself as well as with my sis and bapak. the hikmah i get from this incident is i've learn to be independent and more responsible. to be honest, i was a lazy girl who usually let mak handle the household. i was not a good daughter who have done a lot of sins to her parents. and i admit i take advantage of mak. when she's not at home, i got a shock. i missed her extremely. it made me realise how powerful and great a mother's role is. her influence towards the whole family. bapak who rarely shows his sentimental side did miss her. he even lost weight. and my tasteless cooking was one of the factors. haha.
The AlMighty has His clever ways to open our eyes. the incident really woke me up. only after that someone is gone(either for a while or forever) then you realise the person's presence. you realise how much you need the person. i have to admit i really love mak very much.
speaking of this dengue thing, i used to show a bochap attitude towards it. had this mindset that me and my family are not going to get it. obviously, i was wrong. now i know why singapore is very serious about it. found out that my housing estate area is the most hottest dengue zone. there's a total of 23 cases(last updated 29/05) haiz.
so people, please don't ever leave any stagnant water. hee.
