Friday, February 20, 2009
finally, the exam is over. i hate that i am an exam procrastinator. rabiah simply can't get done over the fact that the exam is over and there's nothing to be done except tawakkal. and no one is borned a procrastinator. one makes him/herself so :(now that i'm having a 3-week break, i should make use of it. haha. will be in year 3 soon! and i extremely hope i can pass all my papers... InsyaAllah. i can't afford to retake. anyway, i badly need to lose weight. i have gained a lot of weight due to my sedentary lifestyle. i've been munching a lot of junkies due to supposedly stress of attachment and exam. haiz. i need to stop this unhealthy lifestyle before i can't fit in any of my clothings. hee. ok, when should i hit the gym?
at times, i'm not sure if i am really into nursing. last attachment was a wake-up call. being a nurse is not as easy as what people think. come on, real lifes are in our hands. i hate it when i am asked why i joined nursing, which even a 28-pointer can join. and just recently, someone irked me by commenting why on earth i joined nursing and not enrolled myself in jc. whatever la. even graduated jc students join nursing. ok, what a mature response, rabiah. well, i do like nursing as it really makes your day when you've done your part in helping the patients. that's the up point about nursing. if not for the patients, i don't think i can hold on. and Alhamdullilah, i'm grateful that i've secured myself a job even though i've to serve 3-years bond at ttsh. all this talk about recession does scare me. about 51% of universities students afraid of graduating over a fear of stepping into shaky, unstable working world. the seniors are afraid of being laid off. and retrenchment rate is increasing. how are the family members of the 'economy downturn victims' feel? bapak has been retrenched before so perhaps i can understand how they feel. it's not easy especially if that someone is the sole breadwinner of the family? bapak lost a lot weight during that period, obviously worrying about the future. now he has gained weight. hehe. yeah, he's now happy with his job. i'm glad that i do ease bapak's heavy burden on his shoulders even if it's a small bag of pebbles. he somehow no longer has to touch my school life. erm, i mean he doesn't have to worry about it. the sponsorship money i receive from ttsh has lightened the family's problem. yeah, to be frank, i do feel pressurized with the sponsorship. it is the pushing factor for me to work very hard in nursing. at times, when i feel like quitting, this factor is the 2nd most biggest barrier besides my family. i won't want to turn my family down esp mak. and money makes the world go round esp in s'pore. ok, besides certificates.
have i mentioned i love my azam kids? the new kids are much better. not as nakal as the last year's. haha. ok, that's evil. shouldn't say that. these kids need mentors to guide them to the right path. seriously.
i wonder how on earth i could get an a for my malay in os when i just learned that 'berdikari' stands for 'berdiri di atas kaki sendiri' from tahu-nahu?!!
can't wait to watch dvds of my disney princesses :) ooh. and i love to go to the guardian shop. songs from the disney princess' movies are always played :)what is my dream?
rabiah♥6:31 PM
