Wednesday, April 15, 2009
during this holiday, i've this habit of sleeping very late till like 3-4 plus in the morning, wake up at 6 plus to have a short wash-up and solat suboh (ok, i gotta admit that at times, the syaitan pee at my face.), sleep after solating only to wake up like at 10 plus or even after 11. it's very unhealthy, isn't it? speaking of unhealthy, i'm definitely becoming more unhealthy. gosh, when can i ever stop this? anyway, it seems to be my body clock for this break. i hope i'm able to adjust it when school reopens. only after i've checked the schedule did i realise that lesson starts at 0800 from mon to fri. cool or what. oh, somehow i've started this 'cool or what' saying. i used to be irritated whenever zawani mentioned that line. now, why am i saying it? haha. and we're taking 3 bloody adult nursing modules. 3?!! i can't even handle 1 and i'm gonna study 3 soon. very good. and why must we take national education as a module with no credit? i'm ok with ne but let it have at least 1 credit to make it more worth it. so, my dear lecturers, please anticipate poor attendance for this module. and finally, i'm in the final year.
i am the nursing student with the red sticker. like what ms barbara told us, "y'll are in the redness stage." am i ready for it? am i able to pull through this final lap of this course? do i have the courage and willpower to cope with the pressure? will i pass this course with flying colours? will i be a good nurse? will i have the capability and willingness to further my studies? these are several of the questions which are frequently playing in my mind. Ya Allah, i extremely hope i can go through this smoothly in spite of the many obstacles i know i'm going to face along the journey. InsyaAllah...
i just wanna make mak happy. i know she's now very worried for sa'adah who's sitting for her os this year. i can see that sa'adah wants to work hard in order to get to her prefered diploma course. to be honest, i've never seen her that hardworking before. however, she is very lack of strength and faith. she has this negative mindset that she's not going to make it. she fears for the worst and is skeptical of her results. ok, and that kinda sounds like me. rabiah, what kind of kakak are you? i admit i've not been a good role model for my sisters. and i'm not going to state the negative things about myself cause they're too many to type. but i do hope sa'adah can pull it off. i doubt things will be better if she continues to cry almost every night. i really want her to be strong, not as weak as me. InsyaAllah, sa'adah is able to achieve her dream if she believes in herself. and i've to change for the better. urgh, why do i feel it's difficult?
and i'm also worried for safiah. i'm worried for her future. she is just too relaxed in her studies. most of the times, i'm really irked with her too carefree attitude. and most of the times, i nag at her. not surprisingly, the nagging apparently has been falling to deaf ears. but she does have her good sides, of course. i don't think i can be as religious as her. hee.
sape tak sayang adek kan? :)hmm, i kinda like eminem's new music video, we made you. it's extremely rude but yeah, hilarious. haha. that fellow never changes. if he thinks kim's butt is big, he should have seen mine. only then, will he understand what massive glutious maximus actually means.
i've been listening to the old school songs. haha. malay songs from the 70s as well as songs we used to listen back in sec sch days. erm, like songs from the black eyed peas. remember pump it? haha.
j mizan's kalau ku bayangkan:)
ooh, i've watched susuk and read its novel as well. surprisingly, i prefer the movie. it's not scary la. erm, except maybe for the scene when the student nurse heard the deceased pleading her to sing a song. imagine myself in her shoes. alone with the body. i guess i would go speechless and...entah. but the storyline is good. it's much better than congkak and jangan pandang belakang. only after i watched it twice did i finally understand the storyline. actually, it's better to read the novel first in order to understand who this dewangga guy is. and dewangga is so... charismatic. haha. giler ;P
rabiah♥1:36 AM
