Friday, October 23, 2009
i've been slacking, erm, and putting on weight, on most of the days during my break. didn't really do much productive works. haha. besides being mak's pa. hee. that's why she loves me around. hmm. i love curling myself up on my bed, watching tv or reading novels or doing sudokus while listening to songs from my mp3 player. somehow, that seems heavenly to me. it's my favourite past time. not forgetting, i'll enjoy slowly muching a bar of cadbury or a packet of zooland biscuits or both. hehe. next week, i'll start my ed&ot posting. have not really gone through my notes yet as i've been reading the novels which i've borrowed. hehe. hope i'll start soon before i turn a damn sotong next week. a friend of mine commented that ed is chaotic. it's not surprising as since i found that lscn is chaotic, what about the actual event itself. feel quite excited yet very anxious about the posting. i'm not sure if i'm able to have the opportunity to be the scrub nurse as it depends on...circumstances? haa. but most of the comments i got regarding the ot posting were kinda negative. hmm. let just see how it goes. just hope that everything goes smoothly... ok, besides slacking, i also spent my precious time with my beloved family members. ultimately, besides Him, family will always be there for you:)
it's really sad i used to be very ignorant. i used to have this damn stupid this-won't-happen-to-me-i-won't-face-this-kind-of-situation mindset. but when it occurs, i eat my words. i still remember the time when i mentioned that word to mak. i can't lie that i actually had that alah attitude upon mentioning it, thinking it won't happen. but i'm wrong. it does happen. only after i made a thorough research on it did i get really worried. i used to know it briefly. the first time i heard about it was when i was in pri sch. unfortunately, i didn't pay much attention to it as this heartless rabiah thought it had nothing to do with her. when i was in sec sch, i had volunteered to take part in camps at the institution. come on, who would have thought that that kind of situation would really happen one day. hence, unfortunately, again, i didn't pay much attention to it. now i've to really pay attention to it.
erm, there's someone i know who has changed but not for good. i'm not closed to that person. hence, i don't think i can advise that person. it's just that i'm disappointed that that person changed. i used to look up to that person but now, i'm just disappointed in that person. i pray that that person will change for good. soon. that person reminded me of someone who used to be my role model but sadly, has changed a lot. i'd talked to her about it but it fell to deaf ears. oh well, who will listen to me anyway? i'm not even a good person:(
hmph! it's unfair that abdul rahman is good-looking and photogenic, and i'm not. haha. we will always love him extremely much unconditionally.never doubt that a group of thoughtful, committed people can change the world. it's the only thing that the world has.
my thoughts are for the earthquake and typhoon victims.
rabiah♥12:44 AM
