Monday, November 08, 2010
can't sleep now. haiz. nowadays, my sleeping order is not consistent and somehow, my body is able to adapt to the changes in the body clock. at times, i can sleep like 3-4hrs but at other times, i sleep like 10-12hrs straight. perhaps the long hours sleep are to make up the incomplete duration of sleeps i have had. hehe. 'bayar hutang tidor'.
on the 29th of oct marks the world psoriasis day. honestly, i didn't know there was such a day until i read the today papers. initailly, i thought what the point is to commemerate such a day. really. i have it myself. only after reading an article from the psoriasis association of singapore did i realize the significance of the day. it is specially dedicated to people with psoriasis/psoriatic arthritis, raising awareness about psoriasis and give people with psoriasis the attention and consideration they deserve. haa. nice one. i should be grateful that my psoriasis ain't that bad, i've seen worst. the max treatment that i've gone through was the tar treatment. it does sound kinda gross. i'll never forget when we're learning about psoriasis in sch, one of my former classmates actually kept commenting how disgusting this tar treatment was. frankly, tears did well up in my eyes but then, it's not worth it to cry over people's stupid comment. so well, whatever. haa. i remembered i was in sec 2 when i was diagnosed with psoriasis. kept going to nsc for tcus and the treatments. really detest the shampoo. it really smells like tar! one common thing about this nsc team dr and rai team is they really come in a big grp. imagine, i was barely 14 yrs old, then this big grp of drs, like ard 7-9, surrounded me, discussing re:my condition in their medical terms. wth. haha. haiz. only after i read an article in berita harian re: this malay lady who suffers from severe chronic eczema did i realize how lucky i am and how much i must be grateful. at times, i think like i'm the worst person, like i'm the most ugly girl la, most stupid person la, most laziest person la etc all those negativities! haa. whatever, rabiah!
i was talking to my colleague re:our nursing students' times. hmmm, i really miss those days damn much. in fact, i miss being a student. i can never ever forget my very first attachment at sgh. i'm someone who holds grudge so i'd not like to state down what i had gone through during that attachment. haha. i simply wish that i'm abe to further my studies. InsyaAllah:) and one day, i hope i'll meet one of those people who looked down on me and had said straight to my face that i can't make it in life, saying all those comments that had made me very negative towards myself. really. i'd love to meet at least one of them. but at the same time, i don't wish to see their faces. and on the other hand, i know that i need to just let it go...
btw, i can't wait to watch the new disney movie:rapunzel and buy linkin park's new album:)
rabiah♥12:58 AM
