Friday, December 03, 2010
change is inevitable. people do change. and i'm so sorry if i have. well, whatever it is, life has to go on. no matter how hard i think my life may be, i've to keep telling myself there're lots of people who are suffering so much damn more than me. doris day did mention 'gratitude is riches. complaints is poverty.' because if we're not grateful, we can never be happy with what we have.
can't believe it's going to be end of the year. hmmm. should i make my new year's resolutions? or should i achieve my last year's ones? haha. i guess so. wikipedia states the concept of a new year's resolution is to reflect upon self-improvement. kinda true. but why must it be done at the end of the year? haha. whatever it is, it is good to sit down and think what we can do to make ourselves a better person. having goals is an essential thing cause without some goal and some effort to reach it, no one can live. of course, we must be realistic and know ourselves better if we can achieve our goals or not and most importantly, we must try to achieve them as best as we can. one of my goals is to lose weight. really. i can't help myself from thinking that i'm fat. unfortunately, i love eating and ever since i've started working, i've this very, very bad habit of eating late supper. somehow, i like to sleep in a full stomach but i hate the fact i'm like turning into a pig! furthermore, i seriously have not exercised for a damn bloody long time. i guess my last workout was my napfa test. wonder how on earth i could get silver for it. so rabiah, pls pls pls eat less and start working out!!!
recently, there're few incidents reported on gang fights/riots. tsk tsk. when can there be ever a world peace? haiz. friends are of the most influential people in our life. if we're not making wise choice in friendships, i'm afraid we may go astray as well. only after i read some news articles on ex gang members did i reflect my pri5-6 sch days. it's not that i was in a gang(hello, i was just a pri sch kid!) but i've to admit i was not doing a good job in making friends. haa. can't deny that these 'friends' were not good ones. i did a hell lot of mistakes back then. not so major like the ones in the papers but i can say there're embarrassing ones which had let my parents down. i do wish i can turn back time. but then, mistakes are meant to be happened. only when we fall do we get up again. and with no mistakes, when can we learn? there's always a blessing in disguise though. this experience did make me a much matured and stronger person. but it did make me not to trust people easily and not believe the phrase 'best friends forever'. somehow, i cannot find myself to believe that there's someone who will always be there for you through every thick and thin. there is no such person. really. except God and yourself. period.
hope that makes one alive:)
rabiah♥2:04 AM
