there are times when i just simply wanna give up, leave my bloody things and run away. run away from my world and go to my dream world. my own dream world where things go my way. haha. what a childish dream! haiz. it's not like i wanna run away from the problems i've faced. it ain't life without ups and downs. and obstacles are what all of us will definitely face in life. but well, each of us has own our own weaknesses. i'm not that strong enough. sometimes, i feel like bawling, just cry out loudly as if by doing so, my problems can disappear into thin air. haha. but when i did some self-reflect, well, my problems ain't that big. there are other ppl who suffer so much more than me. then, who am i to complain, right?

well, just pray that things can be kinda smooth this yr. going to start my degree in nursing in this coming aug. finally. initially, i planned to take it next year but Alhamdullilah, i manage to save up to take it this yr instead. hope i'm able to get my degree cert when i finish my bond. hehe. well, in case i feel like resigning! haha. no la. don't think that i'm gonna leave the ward cause the thing is i don't know where to go after that. seeing my seniors leaving the ward does envy me; they have left the hell! haha; but nah, i can't. money matters. then, i'm considering of taking private diploma in early childhood or childhood pyschology. having an autistic brother does interest me in pursuing such courses. if i take the offer to take such course in awwa, i need to work with them after that. then, where shall i put my dear nursing career? hehe. speaking of nursing, haiz, it is difficult. every job has its own difficulties though but i seriously request 'respect'. really. pls respect us. we've been compromising a lot, trying our hard to please ppl. not only the patients but also their dear relatives and the drs. we're also professionals here ok?

tsk tsk. hee. sudah la:)